THE LETTERS OF ST. JEROME: LETTERS CVIII TO CXVI
LETTER CVIII.
TO EUSTOCHIUM.
This, one of the longest of Jerome's letters, was written to console
Eustochium for the loss of her mother who had recently died. Jerome relates the
story of Paula in detail; speaking first of her high birth, marriage, and social
success at Rome, and then narrating her conversion and subsequent life as a
Christian ascetic. Much space is devoted to an account of her journey to the East
which included a visit to Egypt and to the monasteries of Nitria as well as a
tour of the most sacred spots in the Holy Land. The remainder of the letter
describes her daily routine and studies at Bethlehem, and recounts the many virtues
for which she was distinguished. It then concludes with a touching description
of her death and burial and gives the epitaph placed upon her grave. The date of
the letter is 404 A.D.
1. If all the members of my body were to be converted into tongues, and if
each of my limbs were to be gifted with a human voice, I could still do no
justice to the virtues of the holy and venerable Paula. Noble in family, she was
nobler still in holiness; rich formerly in this world's goods, she is now more
distinguished by the poverty that she has embraced for Christ. Of the stock of
the Gracchi and descended from the Scipios, the heir and representative of that
Paulus whose name she bore, the true and legitimate daughter of that Martia
Papyria who was mother to Africanus, she yet preferred Bethlehem to Rome, and
left her palace glittering with gold to dwell in a mud cabin. We do not grieve
that we have lost this perfect woman; rather we thank God that we have had her,
nay that we have her still. For "all live unto" God,(2) and they who return unto
the Lord are still to be reckoned members of his family. We have lost her, it
is true, but the heavenly mansions have gained her; for as long as she was in
the body she was absent from the Lord(3) and would constantly complain with
tears:--" Woe is me that I sojourn in Mesech, that I dwell in the tents of Kedar;
my soul hath been this long time a pilgrim."(4) It was no wonder that she
sobbed out that even she was in darkness (for this is the meaning of the word
Kedar) seeing that, according to the apostle, "the world lieth in the evil one;"(1)
and that, "as its darkness is, so is its light;"(2) and that "the light shineth
in darkness and the darkness comprehended it not."(3) She would frequently
exclaim: "I am a stranger with thee and a sojourner as all my fathers were,"(4)
and again, I desire "to depart and to be with Christ."(5) As often too as she was
troubled with bodily weakness (brought on by incredible abstinence and by
redoubled fastings), she would be heard to say: "I keep under my body and bring it
into subjection; lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I
myself should be a castaway;"(6) and "It is good neither to eat flesh nor to drink
wine;"(7) and "I humbled my soul with fasting;"(8) and "thou wilt make all" my
"bed in" my "sickness;"(9) and "Thy hand was heavy upon me: my moisture is
turned into the drought of summer."(10) And when the pain which she bore with such
wonderful patience darted through her, as if she saw the heavens opened" she
would say "Oh that I had wings like a dove! for then would I fly away and be at
rest."(12)
2. I call Jesus and his saints, yes and the particular angel who was the
guardian and the companion of this admirable woman to bear witness that these
are no words of adulation and flattery but sworn testimony every one of them
borne to her character. They are, indeed, inadequate to the virtues of one whose
praises are sung by the whole world, who is admired by bishops,(13) regretted by
bands of virgins, and wept for by crowds of monks and poor. Would you know all
her virtues, reader, in short? She has left those dependent on her poor, but
not so poor as she was herself. In dealing thus with her relatives and the men
and women of her small household--her brothers and sisters rather than her
servants--she has done nothing strange; for she has left her daughter Eustochium--a
virgin consecrated to Christ for whose comfort this sketch is made--far from her
noble family and rich only in faith and grace.
3. Let me then begin my narrative. Others may go back a long way even to
Paula's cradle and, if I may say so, to her swaddling-clothes, and may speak of
her mother Blaesilla and her father Rogatus. Of these the former was a
descendant of the Scipios and the Gracchi; whilst the latter came of a line
distinguished in Greece down to the present day. He was said, indeed, to have in his veins
the blood of Agamemnon who destroyed Troy after a ten years' siege. But I
shall praise only what belongs to herself, what wells forth from the pure spring of
her holy mind. When in the gospel the apostles ask their Lord and Saviour what
He will give to those who have left all for His sake, He tells them that they
shall receive an hundredfold now in this time and in the world to come eternal
life.(1) From which we see that it is not the possession of riches that is
praiseworthy but the rejection of them for Christ's sake; that, instead of glorying
in our privileges, we should make them of small account as compared with God's
faith. Truly the Saviour has now in this present time made good His promise
to His servants and handmaidens. For one who despised the glory of a single city
is to-day famous throughout the world; and one who while she lived at Rome was
known by no one outside it has by hiding herself at Bethlehem become the
admiration of all lands Roman and barbarian. For what race of men is there which
does not send pilgrims to the holy places? And who could there find a greater
marvel than Paula? As among many jewels the most precious shines. most brightly,
and as the sun with its beams obscures and puts out the paler fires of the stars;
so by her lowliness she surpassed all others in virtue and influence and,
while she was least among all, was greater than all. The more she cast herself
down, the more she was lifted up by Christ. She was hidden and yet she was not
hidden. By shunning glory she earned glory; for glory follows virtue as its shadow;
and deserting those who seek it, it seeks those who despise it. But I must not
neglect to proceed with my narrative or dwell too long on a single point
forgetful of the rules of writing.
4. Being then of such parentage, Paula married Toxotius in whose veins ran
the noble blood of neas and the Julii. Accordingly his daughter, Christ's
virgin Eustochium, is called Julia, as he Julius.
A name from great lulus handed down.(2)
I speak of these things not as of importance to those who have them, but
as worthy of remark in those who despise them, Men of the world look up to
persons who are rich in such privileges. We on the other hand praise those who for
the Saviour's sake despise them; and strangely depreciating all who keep them,
we eulogize those who are unwilling to do so. Thus nobly born, Paula through
her fruitfulness and her chastity won approval from all, from her husband first,
then from her relatives, and lastly from the whole city. She bore five
children; Blaesilla, for whose death I consoled her while at Rome;(1) Paulina, who has
left the reverend and admirable Pammachius to inherit both her vows(2) and
property, to whom also I addressed a little book on her death; Eustochium, who is
now in the holy places, a precious necklace of virginity and of the church;
Rufina, whose untimely end overcame the affectionate heart of her mother; and
Toxotius, after whom she had no more children. You can thus see that it was not her
wish to fulfil a wife's duty, but that she only complied with her husband's
longing to have male offspring.
5. When he died, her grief was so great that she nearly died herself: yet
so completely did she then give herself to the service of the Lord, that it
might have seemed that she had desired his death.
In what terms shall I speak of her distinguished, and noble, and formerly
wealthy house; all the riches of which she spent upon the poor? How can I
describe the great consideration she shewed to all and her far reaching kindness
even to those whom she had never seen? What poor man, as he lay dying, was not
wrapped in blankets given by her? What bedridden person was not supported with
money from her purse? She would seek out such with the greatest diligence
throughout the city, and would think it a misfortune were any hungry or sick person
to be supported by another's food. So lavish was her charity that she robbed her
children; and, when her relatives remonstrated with her for doing so, she
declared that she was leaving to them a better inheritance in the mercy of Christ.
6. Nor was she long able to endure the visits and crowded receptions,
which her high position in the world and her exalted family entailed upon her. She
received the homage paid to her sadly, and made all the speed she could to shun
and to escape those who wished to pay her compliments. It so happened that at
that time(3) the bishops of the East and West had been summoned to Rome by
letter from the emperors(4) to deal with certain dissensions between the churches,
and in this way she saw two most admirable men and Christian prelates, Paulinus
bishop of Antioch and Epiphanius, bishop of Salamis or, as it is now called,
Constantia, in Cyprus. Epiphanius, indeed, she received as her guest; and,
although Paulinus was staying in another person's house, in the warmth of her heart
she treated him as if he too were lodged with her. Inflamed by their virtues
she thought more and more each moment of forsaking her home. Disregarding her
house, her children, her servants, her property, and in a word everything
connected with the world, she was eager--alone and unaccompanied (if ever it could be
said that she was so)--to go to the desert made famous by its Paula and by its
Antonies. And at last when the winter was over and the sea was open, and when
the bishops were returning to their churches, she also sailed with them in her
prayers and desires. Not to prolong the story, she went down to Portus
accompanied by her brother, her kinsfolk and above all her own children eager by their
demonstrations of affection to overcome their loving mother. At last the sails
were set and the strokes of the rowers carried the vessel into the deep. On the
shore the little Toxotius stretched forth his hands in entreaty, while Rufina,
now grown up, with silent sobs besought her mother to wait till she should be
married. But still Paula's eyes were dry as she turned them heavenwards; and
she overcame her love for her children by her love for God. She knew herself no
more as a mother, that she might approve herself a handmaid of Christ. Yet her
heart was rent within her, and she wrestled with her grief, as though she were
being forcibly separated from parts of herself. The greatness of the affection
she had to overcome made all admire her victory the more. Among the cruel
hardships which attend prisoners of war in the hands of their enemies, there is none
severer than the separation of parents from their children. Though it is
against the laws of nature, she endured this trial with unabated faith; nay more she
sought it with a joyful heart: and overcoming her love for her children by her
greater love for God, she concentrated herself quietly upon Eustochium alone,
the partner alike of her vows and of her voyage. Meantime the vessel ploughed
onwards and all her fellow-passengers looked back to the shore. But she turned
away her eyes that she might not see what she could not behold without agony. No
mother, it must be confessed, ever loved her children so dearly. Before setting
out she gave them all that she had, disinheriting herself upon earth that she
might find an inheritance in heaven.
7. The vessel touched at the island of Pontia ennobled long since as the
place of exile of the illustrious lady Flavia Domitilla who under the Emperor
Domitian was banished because she confessed herself a Christian;(1) and Paula,
when she saw the cells in which this lady passed the period of her long
martyrdom, taking to herself the wings of faith, more than ever desired to see Jerusalem
and the holy places. The strongest winds seemed weak and the greatest speed
slow. After passing between Scylla and Charybdis(1) she committed herself to the
Adriatic sea and had a calm passage to Methone.(2) Stopping here for a short
time to recruit her wearied frame
She stretched her dripping limbs upon the shore:
Then sailed past Malea and Cythera's isle,
The scattered Cyclades, and all the lands
That narrow in the seas on every side.(3)
Then leaving Rhodes and Lycia behind her, she at last came in sight of Cyprus,
where failing at the feet of the holy and venerable Epiphanius, she was by him
detained ten days; though this was not, as he supposed, to restore her
strength but, as the facts prove, that she might do God's work. For she visited all
the monasteries in the island, and left, so far as her means allowed, substantial
relief for the brothers in them whom love of the holy man had brought thither
from all parts of the world. Then crossing the narrow sea she landed at
Seleucia, and going up thence to Antioch allowed herself to be detained for a little
time by the affection of the reverend confessor Paulinus.(4) Then, such was the
ardour of her faith that she, a noble lady who had always previously been
carried by eunuchs, went her way--and that in midwinter-riding upon an ass.
8. I say nothing of her journey through Coele-Syria and Phoenicia (for it
is not my purpose to give you a complete itinerary of her wanderings); I shall
only name such places as are mentioned in the sacred books. After leaving the
Roman colony of Berytus and the ancient city of Zidon she entered Elijah's town
on the shore at Zarephath and therein adored her Lord and Saviour. Next passing
over the sands of Tyre on which Paul had once knelt(5) she came to Acco or, as
it is now called, Ptolemais rode over the plains of Megiddo which had once
witnessed the slaying of Josiah,(6) and entered the land of the Philistines. Here
she could not fail to admire the ruins of Dor, once a most powerful city; and
Struto's Tower, which though at one time insignificant was rebuilt by Herod
king of Judaea and named Caesarea in honour of Caesar Augustus.(7) Here she saw
the house of Cornelius now turned into a Christian church; and the humble abode
of Philip; and the chambers of his daughters the four virgins "which did
prophesy." (1) She arrived next at Antipatris, a small town half in ruins, named by
Herod after his father Anti-pater, and at Lydda, now become Diospolis, a place
made famous by the raising again of Dorcas(2) and the restoration to health of
neas.(3) Not far from this are Arimathaea, the village of Joseph who buried the
Lord,(4) and Nob, once a city of priests but now the tomb in which their slain
bodies rest.(5) Joppa too is hard by, the port of Jonah's flight;(6) which
also--if I may introduce a poetic fable--saw Andromeda bound to the rock.(7) Again
resuming her journey, she came to Nicopolis, once called Emmaus, where the Lord
became known in the breaking of bread;(8) an action by which He dedicated the
house of Cleopas as a church. Starting thence she made her way up lower and
higher Bethhoron, cities founded by Solomon(9) but subsequently destroyed by
several devastating wars; seeing on her right Ajalon and Gibeon where Joshua the son
of Nun when fighting against the five kings gave commandments to the sun and
moon,(10) where also he condemned the Gibeonites(who by a crafty stratagem had
obtained a treaty) to be hewers of wood and drawers of water.(11) At Gibeah also,
now a complete ruin, she stopped for a little while remembering its sin, and
the cutting of the concubine into pieces, and how in spite of all this three
hundred men of the tribe of Benjamin were saved(12) that in after days Paul might
be called a Benjamite.
9. To make a long story short, leaving on her left the mausoleum of Helena
queen of Adiabene(13) who in time of famine had sent corn to the Jewish
people, Paula entered Jerusalem, Jebus, or Salem, that city of three names which
after it had sunk to ashes and decay was by lius Hadrianus restored once more as
lia.(14) And although the proconsul of Palestine, who was an intimate friend of
her house, sent forward his apparitors and gave orders to have his official
residence(15) placed at her disposal, she chose a humble cell in preference to it.
Moreover, in visiting the holy places so great was the passion and the
enthusiasm she exhibited for each, that she could never have torn herself away from one
had she not been eager to visit the rest. Before the Cross she threw herself
down in adoration as though she beheld the Lord hanging upon it: and when she
entered the tomb which was the scene of the Resurrection she kissed the stone
which the angel had rolled away from the door of the sepulchre.(1) Indeed so
ardent was her faith that she even licked with her mouth the very spot on which the
Lord's body had lain, like one athirst for the river which he has longed for.
What tears she shed there, what groans she uttered, and what grief she poured
forth, all Jerusalem knows; the Lord also to whom she prayed knows. Going out
thence she made the ascent of Zion; a name which signifies either "citadel" or
"watch-tower." This formed the city which David formerly stormed and afterwards
rebuilt.(2) Of its storming it is written, "Woe to Ariel, to Ariel"--that is,
God's lion, (and indeed in those days it was extremely strong)--"the city which
David stormed:"(3) and of its rebuilding it is said, "His foundation is in the
holy mountains: the Lord loveth the gates of Zion more than all the dwellings of
Jacob."(4) He does not mean the gates which we see to-day in dust and ashes;
the gates he means are those against which hell prevails not(5) and through
which the multitude of those who believe in Christ enter in.(6) There was shewn to
her upholding the portico of a church the bloodstained column to which our Lord
is said to have been bound when He suffered His scourging. There was shewn to
her also the spot where the Holy Spirit came down upon the souls of the one
hundred and twenty believers, thus fulfilling the prophecy of Joel.(7)
10. Then, after distributing money to the poor and her fellow-servants so
far as her means allowed, she proceeded to Bethlehem stopping only on the right
side of the road to visit Rachel's tomb. (Here it was that she gave birth to
her son destined to be not what his dying mother called him, Benoni, that is the
"Son of my pangs" but as his father in the spirit prophetically named him
Benjamin, that is "the Son of the right hand)."(8) After this she came to Bethlehem
and entered into the cave where the Saviour was born.(9) Here, when she looked
upon the inn made sacred by the virgin and the stall where the ox knew his
owner and the ass his master's crib,(10) and where the words of the same prophet
had been fulfilled "Blessed is he that soweth beside the waters where the ox and
the ass trample the seed under their feet:"(11) when she looked upon these
things I say, she protested in my hearing that she could behold with the eyes of
faith the infant Lord wrapped in swaddling clothes and crying in the manger, the
wise men worshipping Him, the star shining overhead, the virgin mother, the
attentive foster-father, the shepherds coming by night to see "the word that was
come to pass"(1) and thus even then to consecrate those opening phrases of the
evangelist John "In the beginning was the word" and "the word was made
flesh."(2) She declared that she could see the slaughtered innocents, the raging Herod,
Joseph and Mary fleeing into Egypt; and with a mixture of tears and joy she
cried: 'Hail Bethlehem, house of bread,(3) wherein was born that Bread that came
down from heaven.(4) Hail Ephratah, land of fruitfulness(5) and of fertility,
whose fruit is the Lord Himself. Concerning thee has Micah prophesied of old,
"Thou Bethlehem Ephratah art not(6) the least among the thousands of Judah, for
out of thee shall he come forth unto me that is to be ruler in Israel; whose
goings forth have been from of old, from everlasting. Therefore wilt thou(6) give
them up, until the time that she which travaileth hath brought forth: then the
remnant of his brethren shall return unto the children of Israel."(7) For in
thee was born the prince begotten before Lucifer.(8) Whose birth from the Father
is before all time: and the cradle of David's race continued in thee, until the
virgin brought forth her son and the remnant of the people that believed in
Christ returned unto the children of Israel and preached freely to them in words
like these: "It Was necessary that the word of God should first have been
spoken to you; but seeing ye put it from you and judge yourselves unworthy of
everlasting life, lo, we turn to the Gentiles."(9) For the Lord hath said: "I am not
sent but unto the lost sheep of the house of Israel."(10) At that time also the
words of Jacob were fulfilled concerning Him, "A prince shall not depart from
Judah nor a lawgiver from between his feet, until He come for whom it is laid
up,(11) and He shall be for the expectation of the nations."(12) Well did David
swear, well did he make a vow saying: "Surely I will not come into the
tabernacle of my house nor go up into my bed: I will not give sleep to mine eyes, or
slumber to my eyelids, or rest to the temples of my head,(13) until I find out a
place for the Lord, an habitation for the ..
God of Jacob."(14) And immediately he explained the object of his desire,
seeing with prophetic eyes that He would come whom we now believe to have come.
"Lo we heard of Him at Ephratah: we found Him in the fields of the wood."(1)
The Hebrew word Zo as have learned from your lessons(2) means not her, that is
Mary the Lord's mother, but him that is the Lord Himself. Therefore he says
boldly: "We will go into His tabernacle: we will worship at His footstool."(3) I
too, miserable sinner though I am; have been accounted worthy to kiss the manger
in which the Lord cried as a babe, and to pray in the cave in which the tray,
fling virgin gave birth to the infant Lord. "This is my rest" for it is my
Lord's native place; "here will I dwell"(4) for this spot has my Saviour chosen. "I
have prepared a lamp for my Christ"(5) "My soul shall live unto Him and my seed
shall serve Him.
After this Paul, went a short distance down the hill to the tower of
Edar,(7) that is 'of the flock,(7) near which Jacob fed his flocks, and where the
shepherds keeping watch by night were privileged to hear the words: "Glory to God
in the highest and on earth peace, goodwill toward men."(8) While they were
keeping their sheep they found the Lamb of God whose fleece bright and clean was
made wet with the dew of heaven when it was dry upon all the earth beside,(9)
and whose blood when sprinkled on the doorposts drove off the destroyer of
Egypt(10) and took away the sins of the world.(11)
11. Then immediately quickening her pace she began to move along the old
road which leads to Gaza, that is to the 'power' or 'wealth' of God, silently
meditating on that type of the Gentiles, the Ethiopian eunuch, who in spite of
the prophet changed his skin(12) and whilst he read the old testament found the
fountain of the gospel.(13) Next turning to the right she passed from
Bethzur(14) to Eshcol which means "a cluster of grapes." It was hence that the spies
brought back that marvellous cluster which was the proof of the fertility of the
land(15) and a type of Him who says of Himself: "I have trodden the wine press
alone; and of the people there was none with me."(14) Shortly afterwards she
entered the home(17) of Sarah and beheld the birthplace of Isaac and the traces of
Abraham's oak under which he saw Christ's day and was glad.(18) And rising up
from thence she went up to Hebron, that is Kirjath-Arba, or the City of the Four
Men. These are Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, and the great Adam whom the Hebrews
suppose(from the book of Joshua the son of Nun) to be buried there.(1) But many are
of opinion that Caleb is the fourth and a monument at one side is pointed out
as his. After seeing these places she did not care to go on to Kirjath-sepher,
that is "the village of letters;" because despising the letter that killeth she
had found the spirit that giveth life.(7) She admired more the upper springs
and the nether springs which Othniel the son of Kenaz the son of Jephunneh
received in place of a south land and a waterless possession,(3) and by the
conducting of which he watered the dry fields of the old covenant. For thus did he
typify the redemption which the sinner finds for his old sins in the waters of
baptism. On the next day soon after sunrise she stood upon the brow of
Caphar-barucha,(4) that is, "the house of blessing," the point to which Abraham pursued the
Lord when he made intercession with Him.(5) And here, as she looked down upon
the wide solitude and upon the country once belonging to Sodom and Gomorrah, to
Admah and Zeboim, she beheld the balsam vines of Engedi and Zoar. By Zoar I
mean that "heifer of three years old"(6) which was formerly called Bela(7) and in
Syriac is rendered Zoar that is 'little.' She called to mind the cave in which
Lot found refuge, and with tears in her eyes warned the virgins her companions
to beware of "wine wherein is excess;"(8) for it was to this that the Moabites
and Ammonites owe their origin.(9)
12. I linger long in the land of the midday sun for it was there and then
that the spouse found her bridegroom at rest(10) and Joseph drank wine with his
brothers once more.(11) will return to Jerusalem and, passing through Tekoa
the home of Amos,(12) I will look upon the glistening cross of Mount Olivet from
which the Saviour made His ascension to the Father.(13) Here year by year a red
heifer was burned as a holocaust to the Lord and its ashes were used to purify
the children of Israel.(14) Here also according to Ezekiel the Cherubim after
leaving the temple rounded the church of the Lord.(15)
After this Paula visited the tomb of Lazarus and beheld the hospitable
roof of Mary and Martha, as well as Bethphage, 'the town of the priestly jaws."
Here it was that a restive foal typical of the Gentiles received the bridle of
God, and covered with the garments of the apostles(2) offered its lowly back(3)
for Him to sit on. From this she went straight on down the hill to Jericho
thinking of the wounded man in the gospel, of the savagery of the priests and
Levites who passed him by, and of the kindness of the Samaritan, that is, the
guardian, who placed the half-dead man upon his own beast and brought him down to the
inn of the church.(4) She noticed the place called Adomim(5) or the Place of
Blood, so-called because much blood was shed there in the frequent incursions of
marauders. She beheld also the sycamore tree(6) of Zacchaeus, by which is
signified the good works of repentance whereby he trod under foot his former sins
of bloodshed and rapine, and from which he saw the Most High as from a pinnacle
of virtue. She was shewn too the spot by the wayside where the blind men sat
who, receiving their sight from the Lord,(7) became types of the two peoples(9)
who should believe upon Him. Then entering Jericho she saw the city which Hiel
founded in Abiram his firstborn and of which he set up the gates in his youngest
son Segub.(9) She looked upon the camp of Gilgal and the hill of the
foreskins(10) suggestive of the mystery of the second circumcision:(11) and she gazed at
the twelve stones brought thither out of the bed of Jordan(12) to be symbols
of those twelve foundations on which are written the names of the twelve
apostles.(13) She saw also that fountain of the Law most bitter and barren which the
true Elisha healed by his wisdom changing it into a well sweet and
fertilising.(14) Scarcely had the night passed away when burning with eagerness she hastened
to the Jordan, stood by the brink of the river, and as the sun rose recalled
to mind the rising of the sun of righteousness;(15) how the priest's feet stood
firm in the middle of the river-bed;(16) how afterwards at the command of
Elijah and Elisha the waters were divided hither and thither and made way for them
to pass; and again how the Lord had cleansed by His baptism waters which the
deluge had polluted and the destruction of mankind had defiled.
13. It would be tedious were I tell of the valley of Achor, that is, of
'trouble and crowds,' where theft and covetousness were condemned;(17) and of
Bethel, 'the house of God,' where Jacob poor and destitute slept upon the bare
ground. Here it was that, having set beneath his head a stone which in Zechariah
is described as having seven eyes(1) and in Isaiah is spoken of as a
corner-stone,(2) he beheld a ladder reaching up to heaven; yes, and the Lord standing high
above it(3) holding out His hand to such as were ascending and hurling from on
high such as were careless. Also when she was in Mount Ephraim she made
pilgrimages to the tombs of Joshua the son of Nun and of Eleazar the son of Aaron the
priest, exactly opposite the one to the other; that of Joshua being built at
Timnath-serah "on the north side of the hill of Gaash,"(4) and that of Eleazar
"in a hill that pertained to Phinehas his son.''(5) She was somewhat surprised
to find that he who had had the distribution of the land in his own hands had
selected for himself portions uneven and rocky. What shall I say about Shiloh
where a ruined altar(6) is still shewn to-day, and where the tribe of Benjamin
anticipated Romulus in the rape of the Sabine women?(7) Passing by Shechem (not
Sychar as many wrongly read") or as it is now called Neapoils, she entered the
church built upon the side of Mount Gerizim around Jacob's well; that well where
the Lord was sitting when hungry and thirsty He was refreshed by the faith of
the woman of Samaria. Forsaking her five husbands by whom are intended the five
books of Moses, and that sixth not a husband of whom she boasted, to wit the
false teacher Dositheus,(9) she found the true Messiah and the true Saviour.
Turning away thence Paula saw the tombs of the twelve patriarchs, and Samaria which
in honour of Augustus Herod renamed Augusta or in Greek Sebaste. There lie the
prophets Elisha and Obadiah and John the Baptist than whom there is not a
greater among those that are born of women.(10) And here she was filled with terror
by the marvels she beheld; for she saw demons screaming under different
tortures before the tombs of the saints, and men howling like wolves, baying like
dogs, roaring like lions, hissing like serpents and bellowing like bulls. They
twisted their heads and bent them backwards until they touched the ground; women
too were suspended head downward and their clothes did not fall off.(11) Paula
pitied them all, and shedding tears over them prayed Christ to have mercy on
them. And weak as she was she climbed the mountain on foot; for in two of its
caves Obadiah in a time of persecution and famine had fed a hundred prophets with
bread and water.(1) Then she passed quickly through Nazareth the nursery of the
Lord; Cana and Capernaum familiar with the signs wrought by Him; the lake of
Tiberias sanctified by His voyages upon it; the wilderness where countless
Gentiles were satisfied with a few loaves while the twelve baskets of the tribes of
Israel were filled with the fragments left by them that had eaten.(2) She made
the ascent of mount Tabor whereon the Lord was transfigured.(3) In the distance
she beheld the range of Hermon;(4) and the wide stretching plains of Galilee
where Sisera and all his host had once been overcome by Barak; and the torrent(5)
Kishon separating the level ground into two parts. Hard by also the town of
Nain was pointed out to her, where the widow's son was raised.(6) Time would fail
me sooner than speech were I to recount all the places to which the revered
Paula was carried by her incredible faith.
14. I will now pass on to Egypt, pausing for a while on the way at Socoh,
and at Samson's well which he clave in the hollow place that was in the jaw.(7)
Here I will lave my parched lips and refresh myself before visiting Moresheth;
in old days famed for the tomb of the prophet Micah,(8) and now for its
church. Then skirting the country of the Horites and Gittites, Mareshah, Edom, and
Lachish, and traversing the lonely wastes of the desert where the tracks of the
traveller are lost in the yielding sand, I will come to the river of Egypt
called Sihor,(9) that is "the muddy river," and go through the five cities of Egypt
which speak the language of Canaan,(10) and through the land of Goshen and the
plains of Zoan(11) on which God wrought his marvellous works. And I will visit
the city of No, which has since become Alexandria;(12) and Nitria, the town of
the Lord, where day by day the filth of multitudes is washed away with the
pure nitre of virtue. No sooner did Paula come in sight of it than there came to
meet her the reverend and estimable bishop, the confessor Isidore, accompanied
by countless multitudes of monks many of whom were of priestly or of Levitical
rank.(12) On seeing these Paula rejoiced to behold the Lord's glory manifested
in them; but protested that she had no claim to be received with such honour.
Need I speak of the Macarii, Arsenius, Serapion,(14) or other pillars of Christ!
Was there any cell that she did not enter? Or any man at whose feet she did not
throw herself? In each of His saints she believed that she saw Christ Himself;
and whatever she bestowed upon them she rejoiced to feel that she had bestowed
it upon the Lord. Her enthusiasm was wonderful and her endurance scarcely
credible in a woman. Forgetful of her sex and of her weakness she even desired to
make her abode, together with the girls who accompanied her, among these
thousands of monks. And, as they were all willing to welcome her, she might perhaps
have sought and obtained permission to do so; had she not been drawn away by a
still greater passion for the holy places. Coming by sea from Pelusium to Maioma
on account of the great heat, she returned so rapidly that you would have
thought her a bird. Not long afterwards, making up her mind to dwell permanently in
holy Bethlehem, she took up her abode for three years m a miserable hostelry;
till she could build the requisite cells and monastic buildings, to say nothing
of a guest house for passing travellers where they might find the welcome which
Mary and Joseph had missed. At this point I conclude my narrative of the
journeys that she made accompanied by Eustochium and many other virgins.
15. I am now free to describe at greater length the virtue which was her
peculiar charm; and in setting forth this I call God to witness that I am no
flatterer. I add nothing. I exaggerate nothing. On the contrary I tone down much
that I may not appear to relate incredibilities. My carping critics must not
insinuate that I am drawing on my imagination or decking Paula, like sop's crow,
with the fine feathers of other birds. Humility is the first of Christian
graces, and hers was so pronounced that one who had never seen her, and who on
account of her celebrity had desired to see her, would have believed that he saw not
her but the lowest of her maids. When she was surrounded by companies of
virgins she was always the least remarkable in dress, in speech, in gesture, and in
gait. From the time that her husband died until she fell asleep herself she
never sat at meat with a man, even though she might know him to stand upon the
pinnacle of the episcopate. She never entered a bath except when dangerously ill.
Even in the severest fever she rested not on an ordinary bed but on the hard
ground covered only with a mat of goat's hair; if that can be called rest which
made day and night alike a time of almost unbroken prayer. Well did she fulfil
the words of the psalter: "All the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch
with my tear"!(1) Her tears welled forth as it were from fountains, and she
lamented her slightest faults as if they were sins of the deepest dye. Constantly
did I warn her to spare her eyes and to keep them for the reading of the
gospel; but she only said: 'I must disfigure that face which contrary to God's
commandment I have painted with rouge, white lead, and antimony. I must mortify that
body which has been given up to many pleasures. I must make up for my long
laughter by constant weeping. I must exchange my soft linen and costly silks for
rough goat's hair. I who have pleased my husband and the world in the past,
desire now to please Christ.' Were I among her great and signal virtues to select
her chastity as a subject of praise, my words would seem superfluous; for, even
when she was still in the world, she set an example to all the matrons of Rome,
and bore herself so admirably that the most slanderous never ventured to
couple scandal with her name.(1) No mind could be more considerate than hers, or
none kinder towards the lowly. She did not court the powerful; at the same time,
if the proud and the vainglorious sought her, she did not turn from them with
disdain. If she saw a poor man, she supported him: and if she saw a rich one, she
urged him to do good. Her liberality alone knew no bounds. Indeed, so anxious
was she to turn no needy person away that she borrowed money at interest and
often contracted new loans to pay off old ones. I was wrong, I admit; but when I
saw her so profuse in giving, I reproved her alleging the apostle's words: "I
mean not that other men be eased and ye burthened; but by an equality that now
at this time your abundance may be a supply for their want, that their abundance
also may be a supply for your want.''(2) I quoted from the gospel the
Saviour's words: "he that hath two coats, let him impart one of them to him that hath
none";(3) and I warned her that she might not always have means to do as she
would wish. Other arguments I adduced to the same purpose; but with admirable
modesty and brevity she overruled them all. "God is my witness," she said, "that
what I do I do for His sake. My prayer is that I may die a beggar not leaving a
penny to my daughter and indebted to strangers for my winding sheet." She then
concluded with these words: "I, if I beg, shall find many to give to me; but if
this beggar does not obtain help from me who by borrowing can give it to him,
he will die; and if he dies, of whom will his soul be required?" wished her to
be more careful in managing her concerns, but she with a faith more glowing than
mine clave to the Saviour with her whole heart and poor in spirit followed
the Lord in His poverty, giving back to Him what she had received and becoming
poor for His sake. She obtained her wish at last and died leaving her daughter
overwhelmed with a mass of debt. This Eustochium still owes and indeed cannot
hope to pay off by her own exertions; only the mercy of Christ can free her from
it.
16. Many married ladies make it a habit to confer gifts upon their own
trumpeters, and while they are extremely profuse to a few, with hold all help from
the many. From this fault Paula was altogether free. She gave her money to
each according as each had need, not ministering to self-indulgence but
relieving want, No poor person went away from her empty handed. And all this she was
enabled to do not by the greatness of her wealth but by her careful management of
it. She constantly had on her lips such phrases as these: "Blessed are the
merciful for they shall obtain mercy:"(1) and "water will quench a flaming fire;
and alms maketh an atonement for sins;"(2) and "make to yourselves friends of
the mammon of unrighteousness that ... they may receive you into everlasting
habitations;"(3) and "give alms ... and behold all things are clean unto you;"(4)
and Daniel's words to King Nebuchadnezzar in which he admonished him to redeem
his sins by almsgiving.(5) She wished to spend her money not upon these stones,
that shall pass away with the earth and the world, but upon those living
stones, which roll over the earth;(6) of which in the apocalypse of John the city of
the great king is built;(7) of which also the scripture tells us that they
shall be changed into sapphire and emerald and jasper and other gems.(8)
17. But these qualities she may well share with a few others and the devil
knows that it is not in these that the highest virtue consists. For, when Job
has lost his substance and when his house and children have been destroyed,
Satan says to the Lord: "Skin for skin, yea all that a man hath, will he give for
his life. But put forth thine hand now and touch his bone and his flesh, and he
will curse thee to thy face."(9) We know that many persons while they have
given alms have yet given nothing which touches their bodily comfort; and while
they have held out a helping hand to those in need are themselves overcome with
sensual indulgences; they white-wash the outside but within they are "full of
dead men's bones."(1) Paula was not one of these. Her self-restraint was so great
as to be almost immoderate; and her fasts and labours were so severe as almost
to weaken her constitution. Except on feast days she would scarcely ever take
oil with her food; a fact from which may be judged what she thought of wine,
sauce, fish, honey, milk, eggs, and other things agreeable to the palate. Some
persons believe that in taking these they are extremely frugal; and, even if they
surfeit themselves with them, they still fancy their chastity safe.
18. Envy always follows in the track of virtue: as Horace says, it is ever
the mountain top that is smitten by the lightning.(2) It is not surprising
that I declare this of men and women, when the jealousy of the Pharisees succeeded
in crucifying our Lord Himself. All the saints have had illwishers, and even
Paradise was not free from the serpent through whose malice death came into the
world.(3) So the Lord stirred up against Paula Hadad the Edomite(4) to buffet
her that she might not be exalted, and warned her frequently by the thorn in her
flesh(5) not to be elated by the greatness of her own virtues or to fancy
that, compared with other women, she had attained the summit of perfection. For my
part I used to say that it was best to give in to rancour and to retire before
passion. So Jacob dealt with his brother Esau so David met the unrelenting
persecution of Saul. I reminded her how the first of these fled into
Mesopotamia;(6) and how the second surrendered himself to the Philistines,(7) and chose to
submit to foreign foes rather than to enemies at home. She however replied as
follows:--'Your suggestion would be a wise one if the devil did not everywhere
fight against God's servants and handmaidens, and did he not always precede the
fugitives to their chosen refuges. Moreover, I am deterred from accepting it by
my love for the holy places; and I cannot find another Bethlehem elsewhere. Why
may I not by my patience conquer this ill will? Why may I not by my humility
break down this pride, and when I am smitten on the one cheek offer to the smiter
the other?(8) Surely the apostle Paul says "Overcome evil with good."(9) Did
not the apostles glory when they suffered reproach for the Lord's sake? Did not
even the Saviour humble Himself, taking the form of a servant and being made
obedient to the Father unto death, even the death of the cross,(10) that He might
save us by His passion? If Job had not fought the battle and won the victory,
he would never have received the crown of righteousness, or have heard the Lord
say: "Thinkest thou that I have spoken unto thee for aught else than this,
that thou mightest appear righteous."(1) In the gospel those only are said to be
blessed who suffer persecution for righteousness' sake.(2) My conscience is at
rest, and I know that it is not from any fault of mine that I am suffering;
moreover affliction in this world is a ground for expecting a reward hereafter.'
When the enemy was more than usually forward and ventured to reproach her to her
face, she used to chant the words of the psalter: "While the wicked was before
me, I was dumb with silence; I held my peace even from good:"(3) and again, "I
as a deaf man heard not; and I was as a dumb man that openeth not his
mouth:"(4) and "I was as a man that heareth not, and in whose mouth are no reproofs."(5)
When she felt herself tempted, she dwelt upon the words in Deuteronomy: "The
Lord your God proveth you, to know whether ye love the Lord your God with all
your heart and with all your soul.''(6) In tribulations and afflictions she
turned to the splendid language of Isaiah: "Ye that are weaned from the milk and
drawn from the breasts, look for tribulation upon tribulation, for hope also upon
hope: yet a little while must these things be by reason of the malice of the
lips and by reason of a spiteful tongue."' This passage of scripture she
explained for her own consolation as meaning that the weaned, that is, those who have
come to full age, must endure tribulation upon tribulation that they may be
accounted worthy to receive hope upon hope. She recalled to mind also the words of
the apostle, "we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh
patience, and patience experience, and experience hope: and hope maketh not
ashamed"(8) and "though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day
by day":(9) and "our light affliction which is but for a moment worketh in
us(10) an eternal weight of glory; while we look not at the things which are seen
but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal
but the things which are not seen are eternal.(11) She used to say that,
although to human impatience the time might seem slow in coming, yet that it would
not be long but that presently help would come from God who says: "In an
acceptable time have I heard thee, and in a day of salvation have I helped thee."(1) We
ought not, she declared, to dread the deceitful lips and tongues of the
wicked, for we rejoice in the aid of the Lord who warns us by His prophet: "fear ye
not the reproach of men, neither be ye afraid of their revilings; for the moth
shall eat them up like a garment, and the worm shall eat them like wool":(2) and
she quoted His own words, "In your patience ye shall win your souls":(3) as
well as those of the apostle, "the sufferings of this present time are not worthy
to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed m us":(4) and in another
place, "we are to suffer affliction"(5) that we may be patient in all things
that befall us, for "he that is slow to wrath is of great understanding: but he
that is hasty of spirit exalteth folly."(6)
19. In her frequent sicknesses and infirmities she used to say, "when I am
weak, then am I strong:"(7) "we have our treasure in earthen vessels"(8) until
"this corruptible shall have put on incorruption and this mortal shall have
put on immortality"(9) and again "as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so
our consolation also aboundeth by Christ:"(10) and then "as ye are partakers of
the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation.(11) In sorrow she used
to sing: "Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within
me? hope thou in God for I shall yet praise him who is the health of my
countenance and my God."(12) In the hour of danger she used to say: "If any man will
come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me:"(13)
and again "whosoever will save his life shall lose it," and "whosoever will lose
his life for my sake the same shall save it."(14) When the exhaustion of her
substance and the ruin of her property were announced to her she only said: "What
is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world and lose his own soul? or
what shall a man give in exchange for his soul:"(15) and "naked came I out of
my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither. The Lord gave, and the Lord
hath taken away: blessed be the name of the Lord:"(16)and Saint John's words,
"Love not the world neither the things that are in the world. For all that is in
the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes and the pride of
life, is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world passeth away and
the lust thereof."(17) I know that when word was sent to her of the serious
illnesses of her children and particularly of Toxotius whom she dearly loved, she
first by her self-control fulfilled the saying: "I was troubled and I did not
speak,"(18) and then cried out in the words of scripture, "He that loveth son or
daughter more than me is not worthy of me."(1) And she prayed to the Lord and
said: Lord "preserve thou the children of those that are appointed to die,"(2)
that is, of those who for thy sake every day die bodily. I am aware that a
talebearer--a class of persons who do a great deal of harm--once told her as a
kindness that owing to her great fervour in virtue some people thought her mad and
declared that something should be done for her head. She replied in the words of
the apostle, "we are made a spectacle unto the world and to angels and to
men,"(3) and "we are fools for Christ's sake"(4) but "the foolishness of God is
wiser than men."(5) It is for this reason she said that even the Saviour says to
the Father, "Thou knowest my foolishness,"(6) and again "I am as a wonder unto
many, but thou art my strong refuge."(7) "I was as a beast before thee;
nevertheless I am continually with thee."(8) In the gospel we read that even His
kinsfolk desired to bind Him as one of weak mind.(9) His opponents also reviled him
saying "thou art a Samaritan and hast a devil,"(10) and another time "he casteth
out devils through Beelze-bub the chief of the devils."(11) But let us, she
continued, listen to the exhortation of the apostle, "Our rejoicing is this, the
testimony of our conscience that in simplicity and sincerity ... by the grace of
God we have had our conversation in the world."(12) And let us hear the Lord
when He says to His apostles, "If ye were of the world the world would love his
own; but because ye are not of the world ... therefore the world hateth
you."(13) And then she turned to the Lord Himself, saying, "Thou knowest the secrets
of the heart,"(14) and "all this is come upon us; yet have we not forgotten
thee, neither have we dealt falsely in thy covenant; our heart is not turned
back."(15) "Yea for thy sake are we killed all the day long; we are counted as sheep
for the slaughter."(16) But "the Lord is on my side: I will not fear what man
doeth unto me."(17) She had read the words of Solomon, "My son, honour the Lord
and thou shalt be made strong; and beside the Lord fear thou no man."(18) These
passages and others like them she used as God's armour against the assaults of
wickedness, and particularly to defend herself against the furious onslaughts
of envy; and thus by patiently enduring wrongs she soothed the violence of the
most savage breasts. Down to the very day of her death two things were
conspicuous in her life, one her great patience and the other the jealousy which was
manifested towards her. Now jealousy gnaws the heart of him who harbours it: and
while it strives to injure its rival raves with all the force of its fury
against itself.
20. I shall now describe the order of her monastery and the method by
which she turned the continence of saintly souls to her own profit. She sowed
carnal things that she might reap spiritual things;(1) she gave earthly things that
she might receive heavenly things; she forewent things temporal that she might
in their stead obtain things eternal. Besides establishing a monastery for men,
the charge of which she left to men, she divided into three companies and
monasteries the numerous virgins whom she had gathered out of different provinces,
some of whom are of noble birth while others belonged to the middle or lower
classes. But, although they worked and had their meals separately from each
other, these three companies met together for psalm-singing and prayer. After the
chanting of the Alleluia--the signal by which they were summoned to the
Collect(2)-no one was permitted to remain behind. But either first or among the first
Paula used to await the arrival of the rest, urging them to diligence rather by
her own modest example than by motives of fear. At dawn, at the third, sixth,
and ninth hours, at evening, and at midnight they recited the psalter each in
turn.(3) No sister was allowed to be ignorant of the psalms, and all had every day
to learn a certain portion of the holy scriptures. On the Lord's day only they
proceeded to the church beside which they lived, each company following its
own mother-superior. Returning home in the same order, they then devoted
themselves to their allotted tasks, and made garments either for themselves or else for
others. If a virgin was of noble birth, she was not allowed to have an
attendant belonging to her own household lest her maid having her mind full of the
doings of old days and of the license of childhood might by constant converse open
old wounds and renew former errors. All the sisters were clothed alike. Linen
was not used except for drying the hands. So strictly did Paula separate them
from men that she would not allow even eunuchs to approach them; lest she should
give occasion to slanderous tongues (always ready to cavil at the religious)
to console themselves for their own misdoing. When a sister was backward in
coming to the recitation of the psalms or shewed herself remiss in her work, Paula
used to approach her in different ways. Was she quick-tempered? Paula coaxed
her. Was she phlegmatic? Paula chid her, copying the example of the apostle who
said: "What will ye? Shall I come to you with a rod or in love and in the spirit
of meekness?"(1) Apart from food and raiment she allowed no one to have
anything she could call her own, for Paul had said, "Having food and raiment let us
be therewith content."(2) She was afraid lest the custom of having more should
breed covetousness in them; an appetite which no wealth can satisfy, for the
more it has the more it requires, and neither opulence nor indigence is able to
diminish it.(3) When the sisters quarrelled one with another she reconciled them
with soothing words. If the younger ones were troubled with fleshly desires,
she broke their force by imposing redoubled fasts; for she wished her virgins to
be ill in body rather than to suffer in soul. If she chanced to notice any
sister too attentive to her dress, she reproved her for her error with knitted
brows and severe looks, saying; "a clean body and a clean dress mean an unclean
soul. A virgin's lips should never utter an improper or an impure word, for such
indicate a lascivious mind and by the outward man the faults of the inward are
made manifest." When she saw a sister verbose and talkative or forward and
taking pleasure in quarrels, and when she found after frequent admonitions that the
offender shewed no signs of improvement; she placed her among the lowest of the
sisters and outside their society, ordering her to pray at the door of the
refectory instead of with the rest, and commanding her to take her food by
herself, in the hope that where rebuke had failed shame might bring about a
reformation. The sin of theft she loathed as if it were sacrilege; and that which among
men of the world is counted little or nothing she declared to be in a monastery
a crime of the deepest dye. How shall I describe her kindness and attention
towards the sick or the wonderful care and devotion with which she nursed them?
Yet, although when others were sick she freely gave them every indulgence, and
even allowed them to eat meat; when she fell ill herself, she made no concessions
to her own weakness, and seemed unfairly to change in her own case to
harshness the kindness which she was always ready to shew to others.
21. No young girl of sound and vigorous constitution could have delivered
herself up to a regimen so rigid as that imposed upon herself by Paula whose
physical powers age had impaired and enfeebled. I admit that in this she was too
determined, refusing to spare herself or to listen to advice. I will relate
what I know to be a fact. In the extreme heat of the month of July she was once
attacked by a violent fever and we despaired of her life. However by God's mercy
she rallied, and the doctors urged upon her the necessity of taking a little
light wine to accelerate her recovery; saying that if she continued to drink
water they feared that she might become dropsical. I on my side secretly appealed
to the blessed pope Epiphanius to admonish, nay even to compel her, to take the
wine. But she with her usual sagacity and quickness at once perceived the
stratagem, and with a smile let him see that the advice he was giving her was after
all not his but mine. Not to waste more words, the blessed prelate after many
exhortations left her chamber; and, when I asked him what he had accomplished,
replied, "Only this that old as I am I have been almost persuaded to drink no
more wine." I relate this story not because I approve of persons rashly taking
upon themselves burthens beyond their strength (for does not the scripture say:
"Burden not thyself above thy power"?(1)) but because I wish from this quality
of perseverance in her to shew the passion of her mind and the yearning of her
believing soul; both of which made her sing in David's words, "My soul thirsteth
for thee, my flesh longeth after thee."(2) Difficult as it is always to avoid
extremes, the philosophers(3) are quite right in their opinion that virtue is a
mean and vice an excess, or as we may express it in one short sentence "In
nothing too much."(4) While thus unyielding in her contempt for food Paula was
easily moved to sorrow and felt crushed by the deaths of her kinsfolk, especially
those of her children. When one after another her husband and her daughters
fell asleep, on each occasion the shock of their loss endangered her life. And
although she signed her mouth and her breast with the sign of the cross, and
endeavoured thus to alleviate a mother's grief; her feelings overpowered her and her
maternal instincts were too much for her confiding mind. Thus while her
intellect retained its mastery she was overcome by sheer physical weakness. On one
occasion a sickness seized her and clung to her so long that it brought anxiety
to us and danger to herself. Yet even then she was full of joy and repeated
every moment the apostle's words: "O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me
from the body of this death?"(5) The careful reader may say that my words are an
invective rather than an eulogy. I call that Jesus whom she served and whom I
desire to serve to be my witness that so far from unduly eulogizing her or
depreciating her I tell the truth about her as one Christian writing of another;
that I am writing a memoir and not a panegyric, and that what were faults in her
might well be virtues in others less saintly. I speak thus of her faults to
satisfy my own feelings and the passionate regret of us her brothers and sisters,
who all of us love her still and all of us deplore her loss.
22. However, she has finished her course, she has kept the faith, and now
she enjoys the crown of righteousness.(1) She follows the Lamb whithersoever he
goes.(2) She is filled now because once she was hungry.(3) With joy does she
sing: "as we have heard, so have we seen in the city of the Lord of hosts, in
the city of our God."(4) O blessed change! Once she wept but now laughs for
evermore. Once she despised the broken cisterns of which the prophet speaks;(5) but
now she has found in the Lord a fountain of life.(6) Once she were haircloth
but now she is clothed in white raiment, and can say: "thou hast put off my
sackcloth, and girded me with gladness."(7) Once she ate ashes like bread and
mingled her drink with weeping;(8) saying "my tears have been my meat day and night;"
(9) but now for all time she eats the bread of angels(10) and sings: "O taste
and see that the Lord is good;"(11) and "my heart is overflowing with a goodly
matter; I speak the things which I have made touching the king."(12) She now
sees fulfilled Isaiah's words, or rather those of the Lord speaking through
Isaiah: "Behold, my servants shall eat but ye shall be hungry: behold, my servants
shall drink but ye shall be thirsty: behold, my servants shall rejoice, but ye
shall be ashamed: behold, my servants shall sing for joy of heart, but ye shall
cry for sorrow of heart, and shall bowl for vexation of spirit."(13) I have
said that she always shunned the broken cisterns: she did so that she might find
in the Lord a fountain of life, and that she might rejoice and sing: "as the
hart panteth after the waterbrooks, so panteth my soul after Thee, O God. When
shall I come and appear before God?"(14)
23. I must briefly mention the manner in which she avoided the foul
cisterns of the heretics whom she regarded as no better than heathen. A certain
cunning knave, in his own estimation both learned and clever, began without my
knowledge to put to her such questions as these: What sin has an infant committed
that it should be seized by the devil? Shall we be young or old when we rise
again? If we die young and rise young, we shall after the resurrection require to
have nurses. If however we die young and rise old, the dead will not rise again
at all: they will be transformed into new beings. Will there be a distinction
of sexes in the next world? Or will there be no such distinction? If the
distinction continues, there will be wedlock and sexual intercourse and procreation of
children. If however it does not continue, the bodies that rise again will not
be the same. For, he argued, "the earthy tabernacle weigheth down the mind
that museth upon many things,"(1) but the bodies that we shall have in heaven will
be subtle and spiritual according to the words of the apostle: "it is sown a
natural body: it is raised a spiritual body."(2) From all of which
considerations he sought to prove that rational creatures have been for their faults and
previous sins subjected to bodily conditions; and that according to the nature and
guilt of their transgression they are born in this or that state of life.
Some, he said, rejoice in sound bodies and wealthy and noble parents; others have
for their portion diseased frames and poverty stricken homes; and by
imprisonment in the present world and in bodies pay the penalty of their former sins.
Paula listened and reported what she heard to me, at the same time pointing out the
man. Thus upon me was laid the task of opposing this most noxious viper and
deadly pest. It is of such that the Psalmist speaks when he writes: "deliver not
the soul of thy turtle dove unto the wild beast,"(3) and "Rebuke the wild beast
of the reeds;"(4) creatures who write iniquity and speak lies against the Lord
and lift up their mouths against the Most High. As the fellow had tried to
deceive Paula, I at her request went to him, and by asking him a few questions
involved him in a dilemma. Do you believe, said I, that there will be a
resurrection of the dead or do you disbelieve? He replied, I believe. I went on: Will the
bodies that rise again be the same or different? He said, The same. Then I
asked: What of their sex? Will that remain unaltered or will it be changed? At
this question he became silent and swayed his head this way and that as a serpent
does to avoid being struck. Accordingly I continued, As you have nothing to say
I will answer for you and will draw the conclusion from your premises. If the
woman shall not rise again as a woman nor the man as I a man, there will be no
resurrection of the dead. For the body is made up of sex and members. But if
there shall be no sex and no members what will become of the resurrection of the
body, which cannot exist without sex and members? And if there shall be no
resurrection of the body, there can be no resurrection of the dead. But as to your
objection taken from marriage, that, if the members shall remain the same,
marriage must inevitably be allowed; it is disposed of by the Saviour's words: "ye
do err not knowing the scriptures nor the power of God. For in the resurrection
they neither marry nor are given in marriage but are as the angels."(1) When
it is said that they neither marry nor are given in marriage, the distinction of
sex is shewn to persist. For no one says of things which have no capacity for
marriage such as a stick or a stone that they neither marry nor are given in
marriage; but this may well be said of those who while they can marry yet abstain
from doing so by their own virtue and by the grace of Christ. But if you cavil
at this and say, how shall we in that case be like the angels with whom there
is neither male nor female, hear my answer in brief as follows. What the Lord
promises to us is not the nature of angels but their mode of life and their
bliss. And therefore John the Baptist is called an angel(2) even before he is
beheaded, and all God's holy men and virgins manifest in themselves even in this
world the life of angels. When it is said "ye shall be like the angels," likeness
only is promised and not a change of nature.
24. And now do you in your turn answer me these questions. How do you
explain the fact that Thomas felt the hands of the risen Lord and beheld His side
pierced by the spear?(3) And the fact that Peter saw the Lord standing on the
shore(4) and eating a piece of a roasted fish and a honeycomb.(5) If He stood, He
must certainly have had feet. If He pointed to His wounded side He must have
also had chest and belly for to these the sides are attached and without them
they cannot be. If He spoke, He must have used a tongue and palate and teeth. For
as the bow strikes the strings, so to produce vocal sound does the tongue come
in contact with the teeth. If His hands were felt, it follows that He must
have had arms as well. Since therefore it is admitted that He had all the members
which go to make up the body, He must have also had the whole body formed of
them, and that not a woman's but a man's; that is to say, He rose again in the
sex in which He died. And if you cavil farther and say: We shall eat then, I
suppose, after the resurrection; or How can a solid and material body enter in
contrary to its nature through closed doors? you shall receive from me this reply.
Do not for this matter of food find fault with belief in the resurrection: for
our Lord after raising the daughter of the ruler of the synagogue commanded
food to be given her.(1) And Lazarus who had been dead four days is described as
sitting at meat with Him,(2) the object in both cases being to shew that the
resurrection was real and not merely apparent. And if from our Lord's entering in
through closed doors(3) you strive to prove that His body was spiritual and
aerial, He must have had this spiritual body even before He suffered;
since--contrary to the nature of heavy bodies--He was able to walk upon the sea.(4) The
apostle Peter also must be believed to have had a spiritual body for he also
walked upon the waters with buoyant step.(5) The true explanation is that when
anything is done against nature, it is a manifestation of God's might and power. And
to shew plainly that in these great signs our attention is asked not to a
change in nature but to the almighty power of God, he who by faith had walked on
water began to sink for the want of it and would have done so had not the Lord
lifted him up with the reproving words, "O thou of little faith wherefore didst
thou doubt?"(6) I wonder that you can display such effrontery when the Lord
Himself said, "reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy
hand and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless but believing."(7) and in
another place, "behold my hands and my feet that it is I myself: handle me and
see; for a spirit hath not flesh and bones as ye see me have. And when he had
thus spoken he shewed them his hands and his feet."(8) You hear Him speak of
bones and flesh, of feet and hands; and yet you want to palm off on me the bubbles
and airy nothings of which the stoics rave!(9)
25. Moreover, if you ask how it is that a mere infant which has never
sinned is seized by the devil, or at what age we shall rise again seeing that we
die at different ages; my only answer--an unwelcome one, I fancy--will be in the
words of scripture: "The judgments of God are a great deep,"(10) and "O the
depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are
his judgments, and his ways past finding out! For who hath known the mind of
the Lord? or who hath been his counsellor?"(11) No difference of age can affect
the reality of the body. Although our frames are in a perpetual flux and lose or
gain daily, these changes do not make us different individuals. I was not one
person at ten years old, another at thirty and another at fifty; nor am I
another now when all my head is gray.(1) According to the traditions of the church
and the teaching of the apostle Paul, the answer must be this; that we shall
rise as perfect men in the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ.(2) At
this age the Jews suppose Adam to have been created and at this age we read
that the Lord and Saviour rose again. Many other arguments did I adduce from both
testaments to stifle the outcry of this heretic.
26. From that day forward so profoundly did Paula commence to loathe the
man--and all who agreed with him in his doctrines--that she publicly proclaimed
them as enemies of the Lord. I have related this incident less with the design
of confuting in a few words a heresy which would require volumes to confute it,
than with the object of shewing the great faith of this saintly woman who
preferred to subject herself to perpetual hostility from men rather than by
friendships hurtful to herself to provoke or to offend God.
27. To revert then to that description of her character which I began a
little time ago; no mind was ever more docile than was hers. She was slow to
speak and swift to hear,(3) remembering the precept, "Keep silence and hearken, O
Israel."(4) The holy scriptures she knew by heart, and said of the history
contained in them that it was the foundation of the truth; but, though she loved
even this, she still preferred to seek for the underlying spiritual meaning and
made this the keystone of the spiritual building raised within her soul. She
asked leave that she and her daughter might read over the old and new testaments(6)
under my guidance. Out of modesty I at first refused compliance, but as she
persisted in her demand and frequently urged me to consent to it, I at last did
so and taught her what I had learned not from myself--for self-confidence is the
worst of teachers--but from the church's most famous writers. Wherever I stuck
fast and honestly confessed myself at fault she would by no means rest content
but would force me by fresh questions to point out to her which of many
different solutions seemed to me the most probable. I will mention here another fact
which to those who are envious may well seem incredible. While I myself
beginning as a young man have with much toil and effort partially acquired the Hebrew
tongue and study it now unceasingly lest if I leave it, it also may leave me;
Paula, on making up her mind that she too would learn it, succeeded so well that
she could chant the psalms in Hebrew and could speak the language without a
trace of the pronunciation peculiar to Latin. The same accomplishment can be seen
to this day in her daughter Eustochium, who always kept close to her mother's
side, obeyed all her commands, never slept apart from her, never walked abroad
or took a meal without her never had a penny that she could call her own,
rejoiced when her mother gave to the poor her little patrimony, and fully believed
that in filial affection she had the best heritage and the truest riches. I must
not pass over in silence the joy which Paula felt when she heard her little
granddaughter and namesake, the child of Laeta and Toxotius--who was born and I
may even say conceived in answer to a vow of her parents dedicating her to
virginity--when, I say, she heard the little one in her cradle sing "alleluia" and
falter out the words "grandmother" and "aunt." One wish alone made her long to
see her native land again; that she might know her son and his wife and child(1)
to have renounced the world and to be serving Christ. And it has been granted
to her in part. For while her granddaughter is destined to take the veil, her
daughter-in-law has vowed herself to perpetual chastity, and by faith and alms
emulates the example that her mother has set her. She strives to exhibit at Rome
the virtues which Paula set forth in all their fulness at Jerusalem.
28. What ails thee, my soul? Why dost thou shudder to approach her death?
I have made my letter longer than it should be already; dreading to come to the
end and vainly supposing that by saying nothing of it and by occupying myself
with her praises I could postpone the evil day. Hitherto the wind has been all
in my favour and my keel has smoothly ploughed through the heaving waves. But
now my speech is running upon the rocks, the billows are mountains high, and
imminent shipwreck awaits both you and me. We must needs cry out: "Master; save us
we perish:"(2) and "awake, why sleepest thou, O Lord?"(3) For who could tell
the tale of Paula's dying with dry eyes? She fell into a most serious illness
and thus gained what she most desired, power to leave us and to be joined more
fully to the Lord. Eustochium's affection for her mother, always true and tried,
in this time of sickness approved itself still more to all. She sat by Paula's
bedside, she fanned her, she supported her head, she arranged her pillows, she
chafed her feet, she rubbed her stomach, she smoothed down the bedclothes, she
heated hot water, she brought towels. In fact she anticipated the servants in
all their duties, and when one of them did anything she regarded it as so much
taken away from her own gain. How unceasingly she prayed, how copiously she
wept, how constantly she ran to and fro between her prostrate mother and the cave
of the Lord! imploring God that she might not be deprived of a companion so
dear, that if Paula was to die she might herself no longer live, and that one bier
might carry to burial her and her mother. Alas for the frailty and
perishableness of human nature! Except that our belief in Christ raises us up to heaven and
promises eternity to our souls, the physical conditions of life are the same
for us as for the brutes. "There is one event to the righteous and to the
wicked; to the good and to the evil; to the clean and to the unclean; to him that
sacrificeth and to him that sacrificeth not: as is the good so is the sinner; and
he that sweareth as he that feareth an oath."(1) Man and beast alike are
dissolved into dust and ashes.
29. Why do I still linger, and prolong my suffering by postponing it?
Paula's intelligence shewed her that her death was near. Her body and limbs grew
cold and only in her holy breast did the warm beat of the living soul continue.
Yet, as though she were leaving strangers to go home to her own people, she
whispered the verses of the psalmist: "Lord, I have loved the habitation of thy
house and the place where thine honour dwelleth,"(2) and "How amiable are thy
tabernacles, O Lord of hosts! My soul longeth yea even fainteth for the courts of
the Lord,"(3) and "I had rather be an outcast in the house of my God than to
dwell in the tents of wickedness."(4) When I asked her why she remained silent
refusing to answer my call,(5) and whether she was in pain, she replied in Greek
that she had no suffering and that all things were to her eyes calm and
tranquil. After this she said no more but closed her eyes as though she already
despised all mortal things, and kept repeating the verses just quoted down to the
moment in which she breathed out her soul, but in a tone so low that we could
scarcely hear what she said. Raising her finger also to her mouth she made the sign
of the cross upon her lips. Then her breath failed her and she gasped for
death; yet even when her soul was eager to break free, she turned the death-rattle
(which comes at last to all) into the praise of the Lord. The bishop of
Jerusalem and some from other cities were present, also a great number of the inferior
clergy, both priests and levites.(1) The entire monastery was filled with
bodies of virgins and monks. As soon as Paula heard the bridegroom saying: "Rise up
my love my fair one, my dove, and come away: for, lo, the winter is past, the
rain is over and gone," she answered joyfully "the flowers appear on the
earth; the time to cut them has come"(2) and" I believe that I shall see the good
things of the Lord in the land of the living."(3)
30. No weeping or lamentation followed her death, such as are the custom
of the world; but all present united in chanting the psalms in their several
tongues. The bishops lifted up the dead woman with their own hands, placed her
upon a bier, and carrying her on their shoulders to the church in the cave of the
Saviour, laid her down in the centre of it. Other bishops meantime carried
torches and tapers in the procession, and yet others led the singing of the choirs.
The whole population of the cities of Palestine came to her funeral. Not a
single monk lurked in the desert or lingered in his cell. Not a single virgin
remained shut up in the seclusion of her chamber. To each and all it would have
seemed sacrilege to have withheld the last tokens of respect from a woman so
saintly. As in the case of Dorcas,(4) the widows and the poor shewed the garments
Paula had given them; while the destitute cried aloud that they had lost in her a
mother and a nurse. Strange to say, the paleness of death had not altered her
expression; only a certain solemnity and seriousness had overspread her
features. You would have thought her not dead but asleep.
One after another they chanted the psalms, now in Greek, now in Latin, now
in Syriac; and this not merely for the three days which elapsed before she was
buried beneath the church and close to the cave of the Lord, but throughout
the remainder of the week. All who were assembled felt that it was their own
funeral at which they were assisting, and shed tears as if they themselves had
died. Paula's daughter, the revered virgin Eustochium, "as a child that is weaned
of his mother,"(5) could not be torn away from her parent. She kissed her eyes,
pressed her lips upon her brow, embraced her frame, and wished for nothing
better than to be buried with her.
31. Jesus is witness that Paula has left not a single penny to her
daughter but, as I said before, on the contrary a large mass of debt; and, worse even
than this, a crowd of brothers and sisters whom it is hard for her to support
but whom it would be undutiful to cast off. Could there be a more splendid
instance of self-renunciation than that of this noble lady who in the fervour of her
faith gave away so much of her wealth that She reduced herself to the last
degree of poverty? Others may boast, if they will, of money spent in charity, of
large sums heaped up in God's treasury,(1) of votive offerings hung up with
cords of gold. None of them has given more to the poor than Paula, for Paula has
kept nothing for herself. But now she enjoys the true riches and those good
things which eye hath not seen nor ear heard, neither have they entered into the
heart of man.(2) If we mourn, it is for ourselves and not for her; yet even so, if
we persist in weeping for one who reigns with Christ, we shall seem to envy
her her glory.
32. Be not fearful, Eustochium: you are endowed with a splendid heritage.
The Lord is your portion; and, to increase your joy, your mother has now after
a long martyrdom won her crown. It is not only the shedding of blood that is
accounted a confession: the spotless service of a devout mind is itself a daily
martyrdom. Both alike are crowned; with roses and violets in the one case, with
lilies in the other. Thus in the Song of Songs it is written: "my beloved is
white and ruddy;"(3) for, whether the victory be won in peace or in war, God
gives the same guerdon to those who win it. Like Abraham your mother heard the
words: "get thee out of thy country, and from thy kindred, unto a land that I will
shew thee;"(4) and not only that but the Lord's command given through Jeremiah:
"flee out of the midst of Babylon, and deliver every man his soul."(5) To the
day of her death she never returned to Chalda, or regretted the fleshpots of
Egypt or its strong-smelling meats. Accompanied by her virgin bands she became a
fellow-citizen of the Saviour; and now that she has ascended from her little
Bethlehem to the heavenly realms she can say to the true Naomi: "thy people
shall be my people and thy God my God."(6)
33. I have spent the labour of two nights in dictating for you this
treatise; and in doing so I have felt a grief as deep as your own. I say in
'dictating' for I have not been able to write it myself. As often as I have taken up my
pen(7) and have tried to fulfil my promise; my fingers have stiffened, my hand
has fallen, and my power over it has vanished. The rudeness of the diction,
devoid as it is of all elegance or charm, bears witness to the feeling of the
writer.
34. And now, Paula, farewell, and aid with your prayers the old age of
your votary. Your faith and your works unite you to Christ; thus standing in His
presence you will the more readily gain what you ask. In this letter "I have
built" to your memory "a monument more lasting than bronze,"(1) which no lapse of
time will be able to destroy. And I have cut an inscription on your tomb, which
I here subjoin; that, wherever my narrative may go, the reader may learn that
you are buried at Bethlehem and not uncommemorated there.
THE INSCRIPTION ON PAULA'S TOMB.
Within this tomb a child of Scipio lies,
A daughter of the farfamed Pauline house,
A scion of the Gracchi, of the stock
Of Agamemnon's self, illustrious:
Here rests the lady Paula, well-beloved
Of both her parents, with Eustochium
For daughter; she the first of Roman dames
Who hardship chose and Bethlehem for Christ.
In front of the cavern there is another inscription as follows:--
Seest thou here hollowed in the rock a grave,
'Tis Paula's tomb; high heaven has her soul.
Who Rome and friends, riches and home forsook
Here in this lonely spot to find her rest.
For here Christ's manger was, and here the kings
To Him, both God and man, their offerings made.
35. The holy and blessed Paula fell asleep on the seventh day before the
Kalends of February, on the third day of the week, after the sun had set. She
was buried on the fifth day before the same Kalends, in the sixth consulship of
the Emperor Honorius and the first of Aristnetus. She lived in the vows of
religion five years at Rome and twenty years at Bethlehem. The whole duration of her
life was fifty-six years eight months and twenty-one days.
LETTER CIX.
TO RIPARIUS.
Riparius, a presbyter of Aquitaine had written to inform Jerome that
Vigilantius (for whom see Letter LXI.) was preaching in southern Gaul against the
worship of relics and the keeping of night vigils; and this apparently with the
consent of his bishop. Jerome now replies in a letter more noteworthy for its
bitterness than for its logic. Nevertheless he offers to write a full confutation
of Vigilantius if Riparius will send him the book containing his heresies.
This Riparius subsequently did and then Jerome wrote his treatise Against
Vigilantius, the most extreme and least convincing of all his works. The date of the
letter is 404 A.D.
1. Now that I have received a letter from you, if I do not answer it I
shall be guilty of pride, and if I do I shall be guilty of rashness. For the
matters concerning which you ask my opinion are such that they cannot either be
spoken of or listened to without profanity. You tell me that Vigilantius (whose
very name Wakeful is a contradiction: he ought rather to be described as Sleepy)
has again opened his fetid lips and is pouring forth a torrent of filthy venom
upon the relics of the holy martyrs; and that he calls us who cherish them
ashmongers and idolaters who pay homage to dead men's bones. Unhappy wretch! to be
wept over by all Christian men, who sees not that in speaking thus he makes
himself one with the Samaritans and the Jews who hold dead bodies unclean and
regard as defiled even vessels which have been in the same house with them,
following the letter that killeth and not the spirit that giveth life.(1) We, it is
true, refuse to worship or adore, I say not the relics of the martyrs, but even
the sun and moon, the angels and archangels, the Cherubim and Seraphim and "every
name that is named, not only in this world but also in that which is to
come."(2) For we may not "serve the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed
for ever.(3) Still we honour the relics of the martyrs, that we may adore Him
whose martyrs they are. We honour the servants that their honour may be
reflected upon their Lord who Himself says:--"he that receiveth you receiveth me."(4) I
ask Vigilantius, Are the relics of Peter and of Paul unclean? Was the body of
Moses unclean, of which we are told (according to the correct Hebrew text) that
it was buried by the Lord Himself?(5) And do we, every time that we enter the
basilicas of apostles and prophets and martyrs, pay homage to the shrines of
idols? Are the tapers which burn before their tombs only the tokens of idolatry?
I will go farther still and ask a question which will make this theory recoil
upon the head of its inventor and which will either kill or cure that frenzied
brain of his, so that simple souls shall be no more subverted by his
sacrilegious reasonings. Let him answer me this, Was the Lord's body unclean when it was
placed in the sepulchre? And did the angels clothed in white raiment merely
watch over a corpse dead and defiled, that ages afterwards this sleepy fellow might
indulge in dreams and vomit forth his filthy surfeit, so as, like the
persecutor Julian, either to destroy the basilicas of the saints or to convert them
into heathen temples?
2. I am surprised that the reverend bishop(4) in whose diocese he is said
to be a presbyter acquiesces in this his mad preaching, and that he does not
rather with apostolic rod, nay with a rod of iron, shatter this useless vessel(1)
and deliver him for the destruction of the flesh that the spirit may be
saved.(2) He should remember the words that are said: "When thou sawest a thief, then
thou consentedst unto him; and hast been partaker with adulterers;"(3) and in
another place, "I will early destroy all the wicked of the land; that I may cut
off all wicked doers from the city of the Lord and again "Do not I hate them,
O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against
thee? I hate them with perfect hatred."(5) If the relics of the martyrs are not
worthy of honour, how comes it that we read "Precious in the sight of the Lord
is the death of his saints?"(6) If dead men's bones defile those that touch
them, how came it that the dead Elisha raised another man also dead, and that life
came to this latter from the body of the prophet which according to Vigilantius
must have been unclean? In that case every encampment of the host of Israel
and the people of God was unclean; for they carried the bodies of Joseph and of
the patriarchs with them in the wilderness, and carried their unclean ashes even
into the holy land. In that case Joseph, who was a type of our Lord and
Saviour, was a wicked man; for he carried up Jacob's bones with great pomp to Hebron
merely to put his unclean father beside his unclean grandfather and great
grandfather, that is, one dead body along with others. The wretch's tongue should be
cut out, or he should be put under treatment for insanity. As he does not know
how to speak, he should learn to be silent. I have myself before now seen the
monster, and have done my best to bind the maniac with texts of scripture, as
Hippocrates binds his patients with chains; but "he went away, he departed, he
escaped, he broke out,"(7) and taking refuge between the Adriatic and the Alps
of King Cotius(8) declaimed in his turn against me. For all that a fool says
must be regarded as mere noise and mouthing.
3. You may perhaps in your secret thoughts find fault with me for thus
assailing a man behind his back. I will frankly admit that my indignation
overpowers me; I cannot listen with patience to such sacrilegious opinions. I have read
of the javelin of Phinehas,(9) of the harshness of Elijah,(10) of the jealous
anger of Simon the zealot,(11) of the severity of Peter in putting to death
Ananias and Sapphir,(1) and of the firmness of Paul who, when Elymas the sorcerer
withstood the ways of the Lord, doomed him to lifelong blindness.(2) There is
no cruelty in regard for God's honour. Wherefore also in the Law it is said: "If
thy brother or thy friend or the wife of thy bosom entice thee from the truth,
thine hand shall be upon them and thou shalt shed their blood,(3) and so shalt
thou put the evil away from the midst of Israel."(4) Once more I ask, Are the
relics of the martyrs unclean? If so, why did the apostles allow themselves to
walk in that funeral procession before the body--the unclean body--of Stephen?
Why did they make great lamentation over him,(5) that their grief might be
turned into our joy?
You tell me farther that Vigilantius execrates vigils. In this surely he
goes contrary to his name. The Wakeful one wishes to sleep and will not hearken
to the Saviour's words, "What, could ye not watch with me one hour? Watch and
pray that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing but the
flesh is weak."(6) And in another place a prophet sings: "At midnight I will rise
to give thanks unto thee because of thy righteous judgments."(7) We read also
in the gospel how the Lord spent whole nights in prayer(8) and how the apostles
when they were shut up in prison kept vigil all night long, singing their
psalms until the earth quaked, and the keeper of the prison believed, and the
magistrates and citizens were filled with terror.(9) Paul says: "continue in prayer
and watch in the same,"(10) and in another place he speaks of himself as "in
watchings often."(11) Vigilantius may sleep if he pleases and may choke in his
sleep, destroyed by the destroyer of Egypt and of the Egyptians. But let us say
with David: "Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep."(12)
So will the Holy One and the Watcher come to us.(13) And if ever by reason of
our sins He fall asleep, let us say to Him: "Awake, why sleepest thou, O
Lord;"(14) and when our ship is tossed by the waves let us rouse Him and say,
"Master, save us: we perish."(15)
4. I would dictate more were it not that the limits of a letter impose
upon me a modest silence. I might have gone on, had you sent me the books which
contain this man's rhapsodies, for in that case I should have known what points I
had to refute. As it is I am only beating the air(16) and revealing not so
much his infidelity--for this is patent to all--as my own faith. But if you wish
me to write against him at greater length, send me those wretched dronings of
his and in my answer he shall hear an echo of John the Baptist's words
"Now also the axe is laid unto the root of the trees; therefore every tree
which bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down and cast into the fire."(1)
LETTER CX.
FROM AUGUSTINE.
Augustine's answer to Letter CII. He now tries to soothe Jerome's wounded
feelings. begs him to overlook the offence that he has committed, and implores
him not to break off the friendly relations hitherto maintained between them.
He touches on the quarrel between Jerome and Rufinus and sincerely hopes that no
such breach may ever separate Jerome from himself. The tone of the letter is
throughout conciliatory and is marked in places with deep feeling. More than
once Augustine dwells on Jerome's words ("would that I could embrace you and that
by mutual converse we might learn one from the other," Letter CII. 2) and
speaks of the comfort which they have brought to him. The date of the letter is 404
A.D.
LETTER CXI.
FROM AUGUSTINE TO PRSIDIUS.
Augustine asks Prsidius to forward the preceding letter to Jerome and also
to write himself to urge him to forgive Augustine.
LETTER CXII.
TO AUGUSTINE.
On receiving Letter CIV. together with duly authenticated copies of
Letters LVI. and LXVII. Jerome in three days completes an exhaustive reply to all the
questions which Augustine had raised. lie explains what is the true title of
his book On Illustrious Men, deals at great length with the dispute between Paul
and Peter, expounds his views with regard to the Septuagint, and shews by the
story of "the gourd" how close and accurate his translations are. His language
throughout is kind but rather patronising: indeed in this whole correspondence
Jerome seldom sufficiently recognizes the greatness of Augustine. The date of
the letter is 404 A.D.
LETTER CXIII.
FROM THEOPHILUS TO JEROME.
Theophilus, bishop of Alexandria, had compiled an invective against John
Chrysostom, bishop of Constantinople who was nosy (largely through his efforts)
an exile from his see. This he now sends to Jerome with a request that the
latter will render it into Latin for dissemination in the West. The invective (of
which only a few fragments remain) is of the most violent kind. Nevertheless
Jerome translated it along with this letter, the date of which is 405 A.D. The
latter part of the letter has perished.
To the well-beloved and most loving brother Jerome, Theophilus sends
greeting in the Lord.
1. At the outset the verdict which is in accordance with the truth
satisfies but few. But the Lord speaking by the prophet says: "my judgment goeth forth
as the light?"(1) and they who are surrounded with a horror of darkness and do
not with clear comprehension perceive the nature of things, are covered with
eternal shame and know by the issues of their acts that their efforts have been
in vain. Wherefore we also have always desired for John who has for a time
ruled the church of Constantinople grace that he might please God, and we have been
slow to attribute to him the rash acts which have caused his downfall. But,
not to speak of his other misdeeds, he has taken the Origenists into his
confidence, has advanced many of them to the priesthood, and by committing this crime
has saddened with no slight grief that man of God, Epiphanius of blessed memory,
who has shone throughout all the world a bright star among bishops. And
therefore he has rightly come to hear the words of doom: "Babylon is fallen, is
fallen."(2)
2. Knowing then that the Saviour has said: "judge not according to the
appearance but judge righteous judgment."(3) ...
LETTER CXIV.
TO POPE THEOPHILUS.
Jerome writes to Theophilus to apologize for his delay in sending Latin
versions of the latter's letter (CXIII.) and invective against John Chrysostom.
Possibly, however. the allusion may be not to these but to some other work of
Theophilus (e.g. a paschal letter.) This delay he attributes to the disturbed
state of Palestine, the severity of the winter, the prevalent famine, and his own
ill-health. He now sends the translations that he has made and, while he
deprecates criticism on his own work, praises that of Theophilus, quoting with
particular approval the directions given by this latter for the reverent care of the
vessels used in celebrating the holy communion. The date of the letter is 405
A.D.
To the most blessed Pope Theophilus, Jerome.
1. My delay in sending back to your holiness your treatise translated into
Latin is accounted for by the many interruptions and obstacles that I have met
with. There has been a sudden raid of the Isaurians; Phoenicia and Galilee
have been laid waste; Palestine has been panic-stricken, and particularly
Jerusalem; we have all been engaged in making not books but walls. There has also been
a severe winter and an almost unbearable famine; and these have told heavily
upon me who have the charge of many brothers. Amid these difficulties the work of
translation went on by night, as I could save or snatch time to give to it. At
last I got it done and by Lent nothing remained but to collate the fair copy
with the original. However, just then a severe illness seized me and I was
brought to the threshold of death, from which I have only been saved by God's mercy
and your prayers; perhaps for this very purpose that I might fulfil your behest
and render with its writer's elegance the charming volume which you have
adorned with the scripture's fairest flowers. But bodily weakness and sorrow of
heart have, I need hardly say, dulled the edge of my intellect and obstructed the
free flow of, my language.
2. I admire in your work its practical aim, designed as it is to instruct
by the authority of scripture ignorant persons in all the churches concerning
the reverence with which they must handle holy things and minister at Christ's
altar; and to impress upon them that the sacred chalices, veils,' and other
accessories used in the celebration of the Lord's passion are not mere lifeless and
senseless objects devoid of holiness, but that rather, from their association
with the body and blood of the Lord, they are to be venerated with the same awe
as the body and the blood themselves.
3. Take back then your book, nay mine or better still ours; for when you
flatter me you will but flatter yourself. It is for you that my brain has
toiled; it is for you that I have striven with the poor resources of the Latin tongue
to find an equivalent for the eloquence of the Greek. I have not indeed given
a word-for-word rendering, as skilled translators do, nor have I counted out
the money you have given to me coin by coin; but I have given you full weight.
Some words may be missing but none of the sense is lost. Moreover I have
translated into Latin and profixed to this volume the letter that you sent to me, so
that all who read it may know that I have acted under the commands of your
holiness, and have not rashly and over-confidently undertaken a task that is beyond
my powers. Whether I have succeeded in it I must leave to your judgment. Even
though you may blame my weakness, you will at least give me credit for my good
intention.
LETTER CXV.
TO AUGUSTINE.
A short but most friendly letter in which Jerome excuses himself for the
freedom with which he has dealt with Augustino's questions (the allusion is to
Letter CXII.) and hopes that henceforth they may be able to avoid controversy
and to labour like brothers in the field of scripture.
Written probably in 405 A.D.
LETTER CXVI.
FROM AUGUSTINE.
A long letter in which Augustine for the third time see Letters LVI., LXVII.)
restates his opinion about Jerome's theory of the dispute between Peter and
Paul at Antioch. In doing so, however, he disclaims all desire to hurt Jerome's
feelings, apologizes for the tone of his previous letters, and again explains
that it is not his fault that they have failed so long to reach Jerome. Written
shortly after the preceding.